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Heh heh, I like this woman. Now that's a mean bitch right there. ------------>

DAY SEVEN was yesterday, I have officially gone a whole week with my diet and exercise. I may have screwed a few things up on the diet thing, but by God I've put my lazy self on that treadmill almost every day. And the one day I missed I made up for the next day. I did the 30 min again and that's going to be my new time. I'm also doing it at 2mph with 15 min at 2.5mph. Again, it doesn't seem like so much, but I don't want to shock my poor heart into a full blown protest or anything. I don't want to provoke an attack ha ha.

I have to be doing something right because I got the Induction Flu, BAD. I've only been nauseous once (I don't care what the dictionary says, "nauseated" is NOT a fucking word, it sounds butt country stupid) but I've had the headaches, some chills, pounding in my ears like what I get when I skip my Lexapro, mood swings, and the general bleh feeling. I thought it was all caffeine withdrawal, but when I got real bad dizzy I went researching. I was kinda worried because of my heart and the diabetes, but it's really common and pretty much means I'm doing something right. Awesome. Now can I get to the part where I wake up and feel like a million billion bucks?

Another good thing is my 18yr old son is sort of limited too. I live with my mother right now, and she has some things stashed in her room but he's the "out of sight out of mind" type. He can only get healthier this way. Until I move out at least.

I'm trying to move to the beach where there are jobs and fun things to do. There are no jobs here and absolutely nothing to do. Unless you're interested in smoking crack or spitting tobacco, then you're all set. I hope to move my family with me as soon as I can, but he's got people helping him with school and a job in the area right now and she has a job.

(sigh) Maybe it's just time I cut all the apron strings in this house and took off to be a grown up all by myself again, I just don't want to leave them to rot in this pit of despair.

Anyway, love to you all. Pass it on.

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Happy Independence Day, not just for us Americans, but for everybody. I wish everyone could be independent without trying to bitch up somebody else's groove. If we would all aspire to the, "you do you and I'll do me" concept this big old mud ball might be easier to live on.

I did my 20 min last night at my new slightly higher speed. I was tired, grizzly grumpy, not in the mood, it was late, whine whine whine. But I got my ass up there and did the damn thing. Then today I upped the speed again and did a solid 30. Go me!! You'd think I'd be feeling better, but I'm kind of drag-assin' right now. I got off the caffeine and damn... This shit is hard. Especially for someone like me. Before the health issues came into play I was hoping to find a portable caffeine IV. I had to cut back some because of the heart, but still was a junkie. But, alas! I find out that caffeine can spark the cravings, so it had to go. I don't need any extra help being pushed in the wrong direction thank you very much. Atkins says that in 3 to 7 days I should be popping with all kinds of energy. Hmph. We'll see I guess.

Sending Love to you, pass it on.

OMG! This looks so much like me! LOL

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DAY FIVE BITCHES!!

I walked around a lot yesterday. I was food shopping because I wanted to start Atkins today and I had a bunch of other things to do. When I finished up it was really late and I was really tired, so I didn't get to the treadmill. (oh noes!!!!) BUT! I made up for it today. I did 40 minutes with an 8 minute cool down instead of the normal 5 min, and I increased my speed by a half a mile an hour. I was worried at first, but the heart was a good sport about it. I haven't done any kind of incline yet, but that will come with time.

I have to say that I freaking LOVE Atkins. It hasn't even been a full day yet and I am convinced this is the one for me. I have had a lot of fun measuring and counting. I'm sure THAT honeymoon won't last but so long but for right now I am very happy. I'm trying new foods and new ways to eat them and everything is so damn yummy. I might actually be able to do it this time. Any prayers and good vibes you want to launch out into the universe on my behalf would be very much appreciated. I'm doing it for you right now.

While I was shopping this beautiful young girl walked up to me, her boyfriend was with her but he was hanging back. She told me that she had seen me walking around the store and (at this point I was ready to tell her, "Look bitch. I ain't scoping your little boyfriend.") she just wanted to tell me that everything was going to be alright. I had been grumping but I brightened right up. I told her that was so great of her to say that and God Bless. I wish more people would follow their impulses this way and not be afraid to put themselves out there. She really made my day and I will never forget her.

So for all of you out there, EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. :-)

ATKINS ROCKS ASS!